I had it all, cause I had you I fucked it up, I wish I knew That this is hell that I put you through I told you that I tried but that wasn't true I'm filthy but coming clean Make myself sick, yeah it's a disease No I don't want no sympathy And now I'm just a memory Drink to numb the pain til I'm sober Sleep until this bad dream is over Don't call me a disgrace Not proud of my mistakes Show me there's a way that life's not over If I wake up sober I'm sorry for, not pulling through Didn't realize, what I had with you Was it love I was searching for Hurt like hell to watch you walk out the door I'm filthy but coming clean Make myself sick, yeah it's a disease No I don't want no sympathy Drink to numb the pain til I'm sober Sleep until this bad dream is over Don't call me a disgrace Not proud of my mistakes Show me there's a way that life's not over If I wake up sober Safe to say I'm not okay Your heart's in a different place Didn't wanna turn the page But things are better off this way Drink to numb the pain until I'm sober Sleep until this bad dream is over Don't call me a disgrace Not proud of my mistakes Show me there's a way that life's not over If I wake up sober (Safe to say I'm not okay) If I wake up sober (Your heart's in a different place) I'm filthy but coming clean Make myself sick, yeah it's a disease (If I wake up sober) No I don't want no sympathy And now I'm just a memory