I had a vision last night Night diving in Monterey That water on my skin It washed my shame away And I've been sipping on a poison Even on the days I taste it Run into the same wall All because I just can't face it And I'm tired of running from the conversations Screaming in the silence all alone And I miss the innocence that it has taken Oh, I'm frustrated, I can't take it But I'll fake it, then I'll hate myself again I had a vision last night Horses on the granite plains That sound of freedom stampeding Why can't I feel the same? And I've been sleeping wide awake Slow dancing 'round the cracks in the floorboards Fighting myself while lying in a Bed I made and can't ignore And I'm tired of running from the conversations Screaming in the silence all alone And I miss the innocence that it has taken Oh, I'm frustrated, I can't take it But I'll fake it, then I'll hate myself again Ooh Ooh Oh, I'm frustrated, I can't take it But I'll fake it, then I'll hate myself I'm bleeding, I can't breathe in And I'm tearing at the seams Oh, I'm so scared that I won't make it out I'll let you down And I'll hate myself again