How long can I stay? How long have I been? Put myself into positions I'll never understand It's such a long way down How hard can it be? Figure it out, any idiot can recognize You put your hand in boiling oil it burns It's a completely different thing Motivation moves the hand Like a dog that never learns Like a dog that never learns Avoiding situation Like owning a gun It's strange to see myself I'm watching as I Close my eyes and jump Now understand It's not suicidal I'll look into its yellow eyes I don't wanna die This ain't about that But I slip into sublime Persuaded by a voice that sounds like mine By a voice that sounds like mine I try to pay attention To things that I've done It's strange to see myself I'm watching as I Close my eyes and jump It just seems so hard To keep it together Seems so, seems so hard I can't show my throat Or catch myself unaware I can't help it Find myself at some high place Close my eyes and, close my eyes and jump Close my eyes and, close my eyes and jump Close my eyes and, close my eyes and jump