said I'm not afraid to die I want to be at the peak of my life said I'm not afraid to die I want to be at the peak of my life just a big push, it was totally lie wonder if she will cry she won't give a shit about me just no courage to act on it It stays in my head like I've been hit All the thing I've done like hell will have been in vain I'm scared at night feel like I'm being sucked in it's driving me so bad I can't even stand up I'd lose my head to the point of collapse the warm light seems to bless after dark said I'm not afraid to die I want to be at the peak of my life said I'm not afraid to die I want to be at the peak of my life