Kink it up Invisible handcuffs locked on me Been praying for my period all week And relief that I just can't see I question everything My focus, my figure, my sexuality And how much it matters or why it would mean anything I can't keep it together I've been better I've been thinking about it every night I'm trying, I am I'm trying, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying all the time, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying, trying Why am I...? But I kink it up There's no flawless education just a stupid degree The feeling of growing so far from myself I can't reach, I can't reach, I can't reach So brush it off, 'cause I wanted that There's no dusting up When you walk like that, here's a ship There's a wreck, better keep yourself in check 'Cause all these loaded questions gonna eat you alive I'm trying, I am I'm trying, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying all the time, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying, trying Why am I...? If it counts for anything I didn't want to I'm just looking for clarity To help me get through If you're set in your ways Well given that too It's absolute that I can break it down for you To feed the beast To leave on leash To come right back to you I'm trying Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying all the time, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying, trying Why am I...? Why am I? Why why? Why am I?