i am not sure i want this to take what it's taking but that just seems to be the choice i am making mother this is all i ever wanted now how do i get back to where there isn't everything, only you i cannot hear because i hear everything i cannot see because i see everything i cannot feel because i feel everything it is not peace i find, it is not satisfaction it's not the life i always dreamed or imagined it is not wisdom, it is not strength it is not control it is a promise meant to quell my every fear yet leave me cursed i cannot hear because i hear everything i cannot see because i see everything i cannot feel because i feel everything i've nothing left no life or death no will that's free i have no way now to explain what's come over me i'm just a body overwhelmed and lying still a casualty of knowing what i want and wanting what i know i cannot hear because i hear everything i cannot see because i see everything i cannot feel because i feel everything